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Now that it's all said and done, I can't believe you were the one To build me up and tear me down, Like an old abandoned house. What you said when you left Just left me cold and out of breath. I fell too far, was in way too deep. Guess I let you get the best of me. Well, I never saw it coming. I should've started running A long, long time ago. And I never thought I'd doubt you, I'm better off without you More than you, more than you know. I'm slowly getting closure. I guess it's really over. I'm finally getting better. And now I'm picking up the pieces. I'm spending all of these years Putting my heart back together. 'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,I got over you. You took a hammer to these walls, Dragged the memories down the hall, Packed your bags and walked away .There was nothing I could say. And when you slammed the front door shut, A lot of others opened up, So did my eyes so I could see That you never were the best for me. Right now I am going between despair and anger....remember my last post when I was talking about the while "I need time thing?" Well he was brushing me off so he can tell me he wants to fuck other people. Oh I'm sorry I don't want to misquote him...he wants to "Stay separated". Right before Christmas.....congrats asshole, you wrecked my Christmas. Why should you care....you are in your plush little condo with my electronics and my baby bird. You have your sister who worships you. And you have your rich little daddy to wipe up the mess with money. You have a little extra cash in your pocket. You used me till I was of no use to you....then you threw me out. I was devoted to you. I am having a very hard time living without you. Half of me wants you dead while the other half wants to hold you in my arms.....I am not sure how long I can keep going like this. My sanity is slipping and with each passing day my will to live wanes.... But why the hell am I bothering writing this.....no one is gonna read it. Welcome to my life....I'm invisible...the only person that actually thought I mattered has found better... Merry Fucking Christmas..... Labels: Losing It |
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