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I know, I know, I've been away a LONG time, but alot has happened. So instead of giving you blow by painful blow (and yes, it was painful), I will gloss over what has been going on with the last 6 months of my life. This might be a long one so sit back and relax. Last time I left you, I was not in good shape. The stress was really getting to me and I was pretty much falling apart. Well, I did eventually hit rock bottom and almost did away with myself. Jeff threatened to leave me and everything. Doing that scared me into getting myself straightened out. I went to see my Dr in Hysterics because I wanted help. It was then that I finally got diagnosed with Biological Depression. So now I am on anti-depressants. Normally, I hate taking any type of medication, but I do begrudgingly admit that it is working and I am getting back to the Angie before this all happened. Things with Jeff right now couldn't be better. Well, at least on my end. We get along very well, and our fights are only little tiffs that get fixed the same day. Much better then the full out fights that we used to have. I also give credit for that to my medications. I find that I don't sweat the small stuff as they say. My hope is that I am not on these meds forever and that I can deal with my emotions without chemical assistance. The only problem is that this medication that I am taking is wreaking havok with my libido (as in I have NONE), and that is making Jeff a very desperate man. Hehe. My Dr changed my medication recently, so I hope that does the trick. So things are good on that end. What else is going on in my life. Well, Jeff is smack dab in the middle of Community College now. His marks are doing awesome and he is really enjoying being in the middle of things. I think he was getting a little depressed being out of work on account of his voice. I am working....well, sorta. Not long after the last entry, I started working at the Call Center that I worked at last year. But the evil depression reared its ugly head and I was off for a long time. I am seeing a therapist now and have since discovered that that is not the job for me. You see, that position is sales, when what I really want to do is Customer Service. So I have had a couple interviews this week and last and I am hoping to start a new position within a week or so. More on that another time. The other thing that has taken up alot, if not all my free time is playing Final Fantasy 11 online. We just got it after we bought our new computer. It is such a beautiful and engaging game that it has inspired me to start a new blog about it. I will post the link when I am done developing it. Kinda like a travel diary of my 2 main characters. Well, I think I have taken up enough time with this catching up thing. I promise I will try to take the time every day (or at least every couple days) to jot down my thoughts. Besides, my therapist wants me to start a journal, and I think that this would be the perfect medium to do it in. So until next time, take care of yourself. PS-Yes I think Clay Aiken is still the best thing known to womenkind, but I've been so busy that I haven't followed what he's been doing lately, but don't worry, I'll start again! |
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